healing process.

ladybird according to someone, it's a luck charm.to english peeps la.malaysian i donno.so..that day i decided to try another kind of treatment, there's this yellow ladybird dat stuck to my shirt.lucky aye~the pic above is chocolate ladybird tat i found in my fridge. guess they belong to my bro.

i was talkin to some pakar in skin the other day. they introduced spirulina.this woman say it will take at most 4 months. WOW..2 months earlier than the previous treatment. my parents decided to give it a try la.10 days of consuming cost me rm609. just imagine what i can do with the money. more n more shopping..sigh. hmm..if it really gets better..i sempat celebrate my 21st birthday PERFECTLY. den i can throw PARTAY!!! woots...

i'm sooo happy today! my skin is drying up!!! THANK GOD! and da cream dat i fraustratedly baught yesterday.hehe..my dad loves me...wakakaka...my problem is his problem. can say dat my parents sacrificed alot dealing with my emotions. can't wait to repay them.

ok..once again..i gave in to my mouth. i went pasar malam. * i know i shouldn't tempt myself with street food* and i bought this 4 for 1.50 dimsum la. after makan.i feel one kind. WOW.after so long din take meat. my body can't stand pork anymore? hopefully i won't have strong desire for fast food n oily food la...since so long din take d.

i really hate the frame to my pics. how to delete it ar?

shopping brighten up the day after.

if not because of this piece (and some others that i lazy to snap), i would start my day 180 degree the other way.i can say that i didn't get enough sleep yesterday due to the stupid itch all over my body. and i guessed it la..in the morning it sting like hell.man i taste hell at such a young age.anyways,i went JJ yesterday. Jcard members' day. ajak my frens all turn me down. so, pathetically i jalan alone. i don't mind la actually. don't need to spend double the time there also la.coz saya single mar.JJ was packed giler la.but not as packed as i remembered. trolleys all over. no brain kar these ppl. bring trolley. tutup jalan only. i got 3 piece in JJ and cost me only rm65.37. sales up to 70%. i was thinkin to myself. if i don't need to buy cover ups, i think i will touch my ptptn money already. just now i have to be particularly sure of what i buy. i hope i don't shop like a spoil kid la.hmmph~*

oh btw, engine maths mmg "mati le aku". seriously speakin. this must be one of the worst paper.tikam not less than half. still don't have any idea how to do it AFTER the test. normally is like..." aiyah..it shud be done like this n that". not this paper tho. is kinda lucky its objective and kinda sick it's objective too. firstly, it's good coz, if i don't know anything, i still can tikam. the chances to obtain the correct answer is 1/4. however, it's sick sometimes coz there's no marks for working. but in this paper, i have no idea how to do it also la.
lesson learnt:
1) never have skin problem.
2) never skip tutorial class.
3) try my best to listen to sheila in the coming lectures.
4) gan chee seng said " don't take chapter 2 lightly".

since it's friday,jum sum up the week.
- i've been notice in class twice this week, not by any cun guy or classmates, but by lecturer+tutor.
first was by gan cheeseng. out of no where."MISS TEO, why u always look sleepy? u want to stretch? " i was thinkin. *sir i'm messy..i knoe..not sleepy"second was during engine maths tutorial. not only my body itchy, mouth also itch like anything. talk nonstop altho i know the tutor is looking. bagus kan. kena panggil answer question.in the midst of all the talkings,i popped out a question i even think God forgave me talking. i asked celine to come to church. hehe..on wed she said she'll think about it. today she sorta confirmed she wanna come. hopefully she comes..oh yea..joanne, another methodist gal, say wanna check out MGC. hopefully she comes too!..fuh.church byk perempuan chun dah~

- i wore baju kurung on tuesday.mom say i look sweet.thanks to mini flower prints.
altho many frens commented on how i combine my baju kurung and nike sneekers. a malay girl said i looked abit rocker with the sneekers,but one improvement. lilo said my batik bag match. syabas~

- went out with hema on wednesday to crash sushi king.2 bucks per plate. i was determined i wasn't gonna eat lot. " eh hema..i can't eat alot la" n guess how much is the bill.rm56.65.oh bagus.dat night was a nightmare. itchy ooo..i know..my bad..broke segala rules about eating.sigh..dissapointed in myself.then after makan we shop for bajus dat is on sale.

-went JJ shopping on thursday.Jcard day.oh spend money like water. now bank left 11 bucks.BANK! ELEVEN BUCKS. not tabung.i think the next time i shop is from BCB bank d.

-friday the 13th.i eat beehoon like no others. feels like beehoon-po d.dad bought bee hoon, mom cook bee hoon...

tomorrow the youth is taking over the childrens hour. hopefully i go.

i always imagine myself without skin problem.and it's killing me.

getting well.

the above pic is a few piece of rice crackers dat i eat with tomato paste. eat like dat boring la. i improvise myself.anyways it has been 5 days after emo post. a lil bit okay dee. tanks for the encouraging words guys.thanks for cheering me up.and tanks for the prayers.

i said i wanted to die in my previous post. ironically, when i was in my bro's speeding car, i remembered saying," kor i don't wanna die.even if with my skin like dat i don't wanna die." hmmph~~

this week is a super busy one. there's datelines to 1 lab report and 2 assigments. tomorrow is my engine maths paper. and i'm still blogging. sigh. tradition.blog before paper.

oh yea..i have friendster again. wow. friendster changed alot since i left. kinda lost now.so many things ooo....k la..if u want,u can add me at teoyenmei@yahoo.com. i have only 4 friends.3 to be exact.one is not even my friend.she's my cousin. tanks to livia. she forced me to create one.

engine maths. mati le aku.

my lunch.

i'm so thankful that my mom still manage to make my food look so good.despite of the amount of things i can't consume. she's really.......i'm just grateful la.

i'm posting this phatetic photo coz there's like so many people outside.people with big kaypo mouths. i shall stay in room.my goodness. one soul after another. can't i get a quiet saturday afternoon??? i'm still a people person. not this afternoon nie.

welcome to my world of eating. no meat/no flour/no MSG, but lots of vege.
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trinite 2007:

sigh.joey G go trinite.

i would really like to do da red carpet photo shooting. it would be fun askin ppl to pose.*kachak-kachak*ask me to be photographer laaa...provide me with canggih camera.~~

masa sengangku.

just after slavering over my control theory lab design. oh sunguh bagus. my partner decided to disappear. i just can't get him. bah~ nevermind. i got help from jack neways. tanks dude.~! now i'm juggling re-explaining what i learn to kelvin+ chatting with jack + blogging. multitask wey.

here's something funny through sms-ing with hema earlier today:

me:hey. today off ar? jum jj this afternoon. got long hours of breaks la.
hema: no la.today work from 9-7pm.i'm going off this sunday.
me:wad?? u mean having off issit. tot u goin off to new zealand kand.perr...
hema: im goin off in MAY la.eh jj got sale.
me:ya i know. i'm goin after class lo.so wanna hang after work.see u at 7 lidat la..mp? mp got sale?
hema: no sale la.parkson got la.eh i'm feel like eating sushi la.
me: eh i can't take wheat/gluten/dairy products/meat/kicap pekat. u think wad i can eat la. i narrow it down d.but i don't belief that in japanese food, there's non that i can eat.
after sometime:
hema:i think u eat at home la. i seriously think there's nothing u can eat outside.

SWEAT~*...... yawns~!!!

i'm bored with my blog template.

a story to tell

hehe. today class cancelled. take this opportunity to write a short reason for that.some students claimed that the felt the building vibrated while me and my peeps lepaking in FBL. didn't notice anything until the lecturer didn't turn up. being a normal student, we always watch out for lecs. if they weren't here on time means either class is off or the lec forgot. i feel nothing. some peep said they felt it but didn't care until further msg.still talking n laughing in the building suddenly the msg that we have to meet downstairs.. *huh?huh?* i'm still blur. reached downstairs somebody say got bom pulak.adoi~ i tot fire drill. kakaka..macam high school..

obviously mmu wasn't prepared for something like that to happen. they don't have any loudspeaker asking people to vacant the area. nothing. the just expect the guards to go floor by floor. even worse. some message was passed through frens. Ngan was telling alex( her kawan) that FBL is not save. and his reply was "spam" wakakakaka..ROFL.

anyways. classes held in FBL was cancelled la.. hehe.no engine maths. i was saying that, if FBL collapsed then there wouldn't be anymore management course..ehehe...JUST FOR LAUGH kay~

so in conclusion.it's due to the mini earthquake in sumatra.

now need to do work d..procrastinate and i will regret.

i figured it out..

i have no idea why my heart is beating crazily.

last weekend my church had this bunch of rbs (resident bible school) to stay over. they came on thursday and get themselves a place to stay in our church.basically they are here to join every single activities our church does la. but they have their stuff too. they went NS area to mingle and talk with the youths there. i didn't join them. so i don't know wad they did.

on saturday, we went tracting mp. first thing came to my mind was shopping.cannot be wad.then i come to know is something like passing flyers. at first i tot it was about christianity. but later i found out that they are passing out invitations for the saturday night gathering. at first i didn't plan to go tracting as socialising issin't something i like to do. den on friday nite marcus msged and said that un ivan thinks it would be better if there's youth accompanying those rbs students. so..i said yes. but i overslept the next day and went one hour later.or was it one and a 1/2 hours later.by the time i reached mp, they only have another 1/2 hour to go. so ..dang~ met some of the kids.i remember their names but i don't think i am able to spell it all out correctly.don't care la..

after meeting with them, i spent the entire afternoon in mp with hema. walked everywhere tryin to shop. so pissed coz can't find any nice baju.but the very last minute bought one blouse from A&L. left mp , drove home and got ready for ice cream night-night gathering. ju came back.thanks to gengyi who at first lied to me about not bringing her back. she got herself bruised in the toilet.aih..she's getting thinner each time i see her..wonder if that is wad she wanted.hehe..but i think if we are not used to living independantly,it would be hard la.

anyways, i promised myself that i would talked and social with every single group that is formed in church ground that night. AND I DID! i feel proud of myself for once. muhahaha..i was like talking to most of the friends shaun,jess,livia invited. and also they other kids la.walkin from group to group making sure that they get to know my name altho the time spent with them were totally short.trying to make the guest feel welcome.like what we were advised to always do.so...talk nonsense..crack jokes.but i realise didn't really touch anything about christianity.i did say " come for youth la" once...but i guess don't be too hard on those new comers la.later they freak out. so the night was i can say fun la.i did not keep to my own group altho ju is there. so mission accomplished.

the next day my social skills totally drainned.suddenly don't feel like talking unnecessarily. rbs students joined our worship that morning. than i felt sitting behind the piano with hwei was funnnn.that morning got no sermon lo.after worship went to have brunch.didn't speak to any of rbs students altho the night before almost kumcheng.just don't feel like it.after some hot dogs livia asked me to teach her a new song.so like all mgc new pianist, the first complete song to learn is "as we gather".good la...once again, the piano is my refuge.i can sense that the kitchen was happening.but i don't bother to go there la..

on sunday itself, when we usually had badminton, we had kapten bola instead. i said before that kapten bola is a universal church sports.so.most christian youths knows how the game works.aih. i was pretty lazy to join the game.moreover my rash is flaring.it's better not to sweat.that's one reason.then i heard that during the night there's pot bless.i decided not to go eventhough the thought of food laid out neatly kinda kill me.maybe i can't bear being surrounded by so many people too many times. ofcourse i wouldn't want to be asked if i'm okay when i'm not talking.so better not to go la.anyways, i went dinner with my parents.

so..come back to the title, i figured it out. i don't mind talking to people and being all friendly and stuff, but i get sick of it after talking to almost every person that attend an event. pardon my weird attitude. so i figured it out during the weekends that my social life got limit.hehehe...

another day to kill..

big news: prison break is back!!. i watched the 14th episode of season 2.i think it's getting more kanchiong la. freak..now stedman's dead.schofeild seemed like he's crying at the end of the episode.this prison break all stab people's back man.geesh~wanna noe more..read da recaps la..click on the banner can d.

yesterday i watched nigella feast "chocolate heaven" episode.whoa...she mmg trying to kill me man. everything is so chocolaty.yumsss....i almost drool watching her make her moist chocolate cake,brownies, crispy cake and chocolate cheese cake.*faint* so i decided to try to satisfy my need of eating sumthing sweet i made "granola" or maybe sumthing like da crispy cakes she made. not much stuff in it tho.no $$ and i didn't buy any raisins or nuts.anyways it turned out to be okay.can be eaten.and a lil sweet la....

she used mars bars ,butter, and conflates to make her crispy bars.
i used rockyroad,butter and shredded wheat to my my own crispy bars.and i made another caramel flavoured ones.

i didn't really know how to make caramel.so i pakai lantak nie.

Ingredients (the real way)

1 cup of sugar
6 Tbsp butter
1/2 cup heavy whipping cream

Ingredients(my way)

sugar
butter
milk.-this is the part i gone wrong.it supposed to be whipping cream.ehehe

stir till thickens.mix shreded(tesco brand) wheat into da caramel to make a sticky n gooey texture.put it to chill in freezer.dats all...den u get empty " granola".coz got no nuts n stuff.remember to watch the sugar.so i think better use the right measurement la..i always take the easy way..simply add n stirr.

it's a monday nite

syabas..i finally get side banners fer ma blog.it used to be so freakin blank n boring.anyways if u are bored..whateva u see oso will be boring wan la...

back to my results.i tried checking earlier yesterday before goin out wit my cuz.but it wasn't uploaded yet. so i headed to town aound 6.30 pm. after parkin i checked my phone.there's two messages.one is from livia askin about my result and if i checked already. the other one is from jack saying that result can check d. terus i chuak.kanchiong la but i tried not to put on my kanchiong face coz my cuz n me were having a shopping evening.so i better enjoy myself before getting all disapointed later. after that livia called..sigh..sungguh memalukan.i said she kepo.but really regreted how i react to her concern lo...sigh sigh.....~ last sunday's sharing down da drain.

goin out with sarah was pretty fun.she's the talkative type.no wonder she wants to take pr or mass com la...den had some complication in burger king.miss com with the person takin the order..but later don't care d la...makan till stomache wanna explode.it has been sometime since i ate the large whopper set. adoi.but i can say dat normal whopper is nicer than black pepper whopper la.before makan we went dataran..din get to buy anything there coz they preparing fer sale.so anytime this week will be goin there la..then in MP i bought a blouse from baleno and a new wallet from nepal. the sales girls in nepal was an entertaining one.lawak betul.she promote all the goods macam getting commission fer it lidat. but it was fun tho.she said she's a lil talkative.and it's kinda obvious...ahhh.......there goes the most important resolution which i even put in qouted form.dang~so i spent almost 50 bucks la.nanti claim makan from dad.

yesterday nite the streets were so empty.and i liked it.i hate jams and lots of peeps around.semak nie.sarah kept askin it feels like the shops in mp were having an early day.ahha..it's like 9 o'clock...

the song playing in my head:

times of refreshing
times of refreshing,
here in Your presence,
no greated blessing,
than being with You.
my soul is restored,
my mind is renewed,
there's no greater joy, Lord,
than being with You.

i actually cook lunch while i was half way blogging.kekeke..just wanna try the new spagetti paste i bought. the outcome...so so nie...maybe coz no meat.and the vege i did aunt tina style..i guess i failed.the ingredients are: boiled brocolli, lemon juice, olive oil,sugar and salt to taste and some vinegar which i don't have.the olive oil turned out to be yucky to me..so i don't like wad i made..but the spagetti and da instant sauce eadible la.but still prefered those made from scratch.i tried adding tomatoes, but the instant paste is just too strong..bah~ and while tryin to drain the spagettin,clumsy me( didn't know i was) spilt the boilling hot water onto my foot. geesh.....burnin pain..got la..sikit sympathy tears to buy my mom so that she clean up after me..hehehe

i can't cook la.

whole lump sum of u-know-what...u don't?

currently trying to pull time so that i don't need to make a start on "to kill a mocking bird" .cakap wanna read. find all kinds of excuses pulak.

freak.type also hang hang.crapss.i'm so freakin lazy to updates nowadays. i'm running out of stuff to blog about. i don't do outings, so no photos to take.sedih sedih.i basically eat and sleep.television seemed to be my best friend.since i don't update dat often, and da stoopid downloads can't move,internet...not such a biggie anymore.wanna lag lag laaa~

i'm kinda just go with the flow nowadays. go with what i feel like doing. it's rather a nice feeling. no schedules to follow.no alarm to wake u up in the morning. i actually had harder time sleeping during holidays than during school days. toss and turn on then bed till around 4 am only can get a good sleep..and ofcourse i woke up at the sound of ma doggie jigling colar bell at around noon.

talkin about goin wit da flow and go free. i had my hair cut again after 2 weeks from the previous. so it became extremely short.short till ma fren said " eh u better put on a hairband man.u look like a guy" *dang* one smack in the face. see what having no friends around to hang and a salon near ur place can do to u. very spontanious man, drove in ..no people..CHOP. den regret. mo min kin yan- no face to meet people. hope dat my hair grow faster la...

oh yea...my doggie-the new one, had a cut on his eyelid while "playin" with the big dog. situation sorta gone out of hand and because of jealousy,tried to rip his head off.wow....RIP.....abit ganas rite...okay...tried to injure da pup la...den had to send him to clinic.dat freakin pup medication cost up to 90 bucks.giler..can buy baju dee..yup..dats da baju i'm talkin about...

da way ma mom punishes the pup.she made him sit still fer a few minutes.i had a good laugh watching him as he look out the grills.wakakkaka....he's super active.hyper kiddo.jump nonstop.good also la..jump jump penat..malam can tido lena a bit.but he shit during wee hours.eik..wee hours-to wee wee... i see i see...

pictures taken wit k7o0i.sucked...i want ma bro's k800i...geesh...

aha...sudah ada gambar...syabas~ so..there's a sneak peak at da new doggie i talked about way back....dunno when la.Tomorrow/technically today, i'll be heading to mmu lib.return books, borrow books...see how mmu doin...and pay jusco a visit..oh yea....i wanna try the new fish fillet thingie. *click click*wat da...googled kfc,click on kfc.com it says BUFFALO SNACKER???? huiyo....hungry d~!! anyways ju's mom tried the alaskan fish burger and she recommended that i DO NOT TRY IT..she say it terrible...wait..did she use da word suck? so..the newly open KFC branch in Giant can't be trusted..okay okay. but thick fillet looks yummy.click here to get 20% off alaskan fish burger.i'm eating it!!!! review later~

updates updates updates...

okay...it sucked dat da line is still bad during holidays. haven't been seriuosly updating ma blog. i either run out of interesting things to blog about or because da internet line is freakin lag. wait..not lag..totally no light on da "data" line. apanih!

i got so much to update on i don't know where to start.

thursday [ 28.12.06] NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM:-
went movie wit the other 18 people from church and also hema.so there's 20 of us. i wanted to kaotim, from booking tickets to collecting them. manatau...i failed again.' again' because i ajak-ed da church to movie once, and i failed to accomplised da mission.very malu..tau book saja didn't pick it up.so this time, once again, i had somebody else to pick it up.20 tickets..is freakin alot. da day before i booked 12 tickets,den towards da night, more people wanted to go and da line can't get thru.wad da wreck.ANYWAYS...long story cut short....da movie was a blast...derk was jumping up from his chair laughing(he was sittin infront of me).ju stomped her feet. i slapped maself on da tigh.and da whole cinema was laughing.wait...maybe just 20 of us. its freakin awesome to watch with a bunch of people.atmosphere....wow...after movie went fer dinner at havana's.i can say dat da standard totally dropped.huge disappointment la.there's no fries on da very same course da we had last time.da food was, dull. i was complaining how tired i was.dunno y. just too tired even to chew on da piece of sirloin steak.gah~i think its da sign dat i'm gonne be sick.

saturday[30.12.06]:-
ju asked to go fer mamaking.at 9.30pm.i usually don't go out dat late.unless i was out till dat late..i mean..i don't make a move from home dat late.neways...ju was craving fer mee goreng.since i was at da last page of sum chapter i was reading back then...i agreed lo.altho i feel dat i lepaked too much. i was feelin a lil cold.but chenli decided to do more dat night.so we went McD's drive tru to get ice cream. according to aunt tina,ice cream is good fer her soar throat. i'm having one dat time.so..bah...left mamak at 11.30 pm.super late d...den reached dataran.went up to da unfinished area.talked a lil.mistaken a group of motorist as mat rempit.around 12.20pm..we hit da road again.back home.

sunday [31.12.06] NEW YEAR'S EVE:-
feverish already from previous nite.still having da soar. i went church in tees and baggy pants.went un.ivan's place fer BBQ at night.i was so down wit fever. din really eat..well..got la..some lamb and sausages. after makan i feel like dying!...i bertahan to enjoy da first minute of the new year. da first thing came to ma head was " i open da new year with a hot forehead, and a soar throat".

An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in.A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves-bill vaughan

oh yea...we tried practicing da malaysian wave (arms flying thing) to celeb once we see da fireworks. but too bad...malacca was down wit financial prob from da flood dat we don't see any huge fireworks but just a few "splashes". pretty disappointed la. i bet i would have a better time if i wasn't sick. when i reached home, i regretted dat i went.i could have stayed home and sleep.but....nvm~
no pics coz i wasn't in da mood.sad rite..~~~ aih

monday-tuesday:- studied and tried to recover from illness.conversed wit ju tru smses.

wednesday[3.1.07]exam and ju's departure:-
ju left malacca 5 in the morning. i told her i'm gonna missed her. ahh...i get emotional easily when i'm sick.even when ma mom came into da room to check on me, touched ma forehead, swept ma hair off ma face would bring tears.freak...hate to be sick. "aku nih emo jugak heh". paper was at 9 am. i'm so not ready.it feels like history is repeating itself.was sick last sem.didn't do quite well on one particular paper. and i weren't ready at all fer 'analog com'. dead meat. after paper was supposed to see da doc. sudd felt more alive..so i decided not to go.

thursday[ 4.6.07] what's up doc?:-
heavy nose blockage.can't breathe. i describe ma mucus as 'pepejal-jelly'.doc said ma flu was terrible.ma throat sudah swollen.wah...like tenat nie. take medication la. 5 tpes of med. pills to swallow.and da antibiotic taste insanely horrible. smelly like anything.but i got well la.

friday[ 5.1.07] pasar malam:-
friday pasar malam without ju and with mom. felt extremely weird. it wasn't a cool stroll lookin at people selling stuff..commenting and not buyin, tempted but decided not to buy kind of friday pM nite.mom was rushing me.fweak.nvm la..

sunday[7.1..07] church looked empty:-
ju's fam and chenli weren't there.from da piano seat i gazed across da room.looks empty. well, i'm slowly feeling da emptiness already.but there's more important stuff to worry about. 2.30 pm-com organization and structure paper. hmmmph...left church pretty early.didn't get to stay back and miggled wit people. 4.30 pm.after paper. grabbe ma phone thinking who to call to hang out/celebrate another closing of semester. and it hit me dat i will have a boring holiday.except da hema is still around.feels weird. i feel it already. i told ju. nvm la..hopefully i will be goin up wit her parents anytime soon la.i scanned around da exam hall to look fer ppl to hang out. i see groups.haih~ tak payah la..i balik tido nie la...sounds very sad rite...not exactly la..i exagerated nie.hehe

today-after 2 nights of unsatisfyin sleep due to da migrain dat i was having....i decided to watch cicakman with hema. well, the tickets i got free from reloading ma phone. all i can say is..i'm glad dat it's free. after movie had makan at SC. freak..service charge alone can kill us. giler betul. but i was nice la..ended da day at 'papa kopitiam' fer a cold neslo.ah~

nah..ambik engkau..updates hehe...
i haven't figure out wad's ma new year's resolutions but one of them is to be more seriuos.

a good pic from yesterday's event...

a white christmas indeed-all wearing white...

Merry Christmas to all!!!!

flood and cameron

been raining and raining and....just let us say continuous rain la.da once beautiful pulau gadong really turnin into a pulau already..da only way in or out of ma kampung area is tru da one "slim" tarred road (in photo). its flooded half way.but da pic was taken yest evening.ma dad said it flooded a lil more this morning.anyways..ma house is still pretty dry.but i hate da lembap-ness of the air.

poor ju and her family.the house is all wet.according to her,the stench is unbearable.she is now menumpang in her relatives houses-first in malim but i she moved to higher ground in bukit baru.those staying arund bukit beruang or bukit baru area...ur are lucky. if ma house is flooded..i shall stay in mmu.i really prayed fer da rain to stop so dat dey can clear da house fer christmas lo..

since i woke up early this morning.let me show u guys some pretty flowers from cameron.i camped there last week-wednesday to saturday to be exact.mostly flowers coz i don't go to tea plantation and all.it was all alright..but i hate da route to cameron.i can DIE~!!! dizzy da whole time.i seriously can DIE!!!...i don't think i would EVER go again lo.anyway..the camp was whole lot of fun.after talks we mostly hanged around..getting to know each other better and enjoy the cold.

the theme of this year's camp is "purpose driven life".it's about being the "light" and "salt" of the world. urm..sumthing like, make ur life a good testimony to others as a christian la.so..i learnt quite alot lo from the talks and discussion held and also by pondering and stare in to thin air in the morning .hehe.in conclussion..i must be a better person la..care about people till they see difference in me..muahhahah...
morning was freakin cold and nice.night was also nice.the whole day cold..it's a blast...if i were to stay there..i would like it. but camp there..i'll miss home a lil la.a lil nie because the dorm was freakin comfy wei~!! HCC got da best dorm!!!anyways..i'm still not too enthusiastic about posting wad we do everyday because i'm still kinda lazy. janji we woke up at about 7.15 am la. but to be honest, i prefered da first church camp i attended..i mean the talks and all. and also the activities.coz in cameron always rain la..dong wan.den we don't have time to wonder around da town.i heard there's nice scones and pies. we decided to go on a natural excursion into da farms and all when there's one bright afternoon.there's two groups..one deicede to stay back..and ther other was my group dat went fer da excursion...SAY LA WE GOIN DOWN TOWN!!! perrrr....tak cakap.i tot the hibernate at the centre nie.but i think if i were to go with ma family, i would have more.............urm....stff to look at la....anways...enjoy the photos...~

i think the above is one freakin beautiful flower.forgot wad it's called.

view from the top of rose garden.

from bee farm

sweet potatoes

disastrous.

the Lims' out of town.to bangkok.and da person dat plays da piano fer every occassion is lim tse hwei. and so she can't play fer this week la. n guess who got da honors da play? ME...yea da freaky geeky of cluelessfreak.ehehe...nasib fer todae nie.tmw aunt angelina play.phew~

as usual...screwed it...i even shouted I QUIT..in a jokingly way la.....i mai play d...i can't play wit ppl singin..i can play in da presence of another human.dat is y i just slipped passed all ma piano exams.the examiner was there.freak~ but i knew i played loud enough fer them to laugh at.ceh`

todae gengyi asked we have friends we think will be in dilemma.or if there's anybody dat we know got dilemma but dun dare to tell. but i was waiting if anybody here have problems but dey are afraid to tell out. so..fer da 1st 2 questions..i think ju should have raised up her hands.

just finished downloaded a song by avril,recommended by jessica during pat pooh.it's da "eragon" soundtrack.it totally suit this post i guess.so i shall put da lyrics here.

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No, I won't give in

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the door's closed
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe.
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Keep holding on
Ahh, ahh
Keep holding on
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
We'll make it through

anyways..this post is to push da previuos phathetic post down.

title-less.

me in CDLAB..waiting fer class at 12.

just finish wit ma midterms yesterday nite. from lesson learnt.i will never ever ever ever put high hopes on any paper.ever again.to comment about yesterday's paper.or da monday's, it's just not me.i think it's pretty uncertain la whether is hard or easy. can do or not.can pass or not.coz, during da paper, u might think dat u wrote da right thing.manatau,result come out and all ur brain can say is, FREAK !...

it's been a tiring 3 days. classes+ exams+ lab.and continous hours of slavering (if there's such word) over sheets and sheets of paper. i've been talkin to ma brain lately.not sure if that's healthy.i doubt so la.there's this question dat i always ask 'it'. do you want this ( studying harder to get better grades) if u really want u can do it. and when i sat fer paper, i would tell 'it'. u can do this!!! think harder!! i knoe u can remember!! come on brain!!...*knock da head* but 'it' kept on dissapointing me. sigh~* i can seriously declared dat i'm not fit fer engineering.but i'm sorta living in denial.i can't sit down fer hours like how i sat down to watch a tv marathon.i can't concerntrate fer hours like how i concertrate editing ma photos-da hours just FLEW. i can't think fast.i can't....i can't....geesh..so negative. and yet...EVERY SEM..i encourage ma brain.

u guys do talk to urself rite?

i notice ALL this when i stayed back from 3.30pm till 7.34 pm to study.den head fer exam.i think da more u study da more kanchiong u will get when sitting fer paper.it's like,u put ur energy and focus-at least dats wad i tot i did- and u went in fer exam and notice u missed some parts of da notes and began to realise dat wadeva u read is useless.sometimes even regreted dat we took a theorem lightly.and u see da question being flashed in da paper.*STRESSED!!*.

fav qoute after paper: study harder fer finals.

enough wit da paper craps.i missed shopping malls.i need to shop.i need new clothes.i WANT CHRISTMAS!!!...but if christmas arrives , it doesn't only symbolised da birth of Jesus, but also da finals. crap.way too near. it's like heaven fer a week.and hell fer da next. AND I'M TALKIN ABOUT TWO SUBJECTS. i study so much-issit?-i wonder if anybody will go koo0-koo0 due to studying.geesh..okok...look at da bright side.at least ma assighments doesn't take up 90% of da total gred.and i get to SLEEP.at least 5 hours per day.hehehe.....

i have phobia fer exams.

A story of a brave gal and her dog.

once upon time,there was a gal,who lives in a kampung surrounded by paddy fields...*screech* okok..cut da crap...here's da real deal..
todae melinda came visiting. when we were happily playin wit ma new puppy,chocolate, ma mum decided to call it a day fer da pup.so she got up and head to da kicthen.then,suddenly all i heard was screams.and i, to my surprised,scream too...not da high tone scream,da low...ju knows how i scream.just remember, it's a low tone.anyways, my mom came running while screaming "biawak biawak".alamak, *lari bertempiaran* HUGE okay.got la..about 60 cm long.den long claws sumore.we ran and we fergot about da pup.freak..."get chocolate.!!!..nanti kena baham~!!!" so grab it and passed it to mel.nasib todae he mandi.not so buchuk.den it stays in our dry kitchen.no where else to run but towards us. den my mom said the other way is tru da wet kitchen door,which is CLOSED by the way.somebody got to go open it.to get to the door, we have to pass da dry kitchen.mel's holding da pup,my mom's two limbs were shaking.argh freak.why do i have to do this.mel said call bomba. so freakin leceh. so I VOLUNTEERED...muhahaha...quite scared la.after opening da wet kitchen door,i called ma dog fer help.not da pup,ma full grown dog-chikkoe.so, he entered da kitchen and started chasing it everywhere.i gotta protect the other door so tat it won't enter da dining room-where we were all standing. all i shouted was " don't come here, don't come here" . after a few seconds of adrenaline rush, ma doggie berjaya shooooo da biawak out. dats all i got..and some sweat.fun....~!

my christmas spirit is pretty high.santa-jello
tanks mel, fer da jelloS

light a candle

i used da filerm negative as da banner.dats where the circles got there.

i used a lil photoshop on this.to change the levels.bah~

my toilet light kicked da bucket yesterday.i use a candle fer light.

Yesterday during youth,uncle philip continued his old testament survey.he talked about leviticus.i listened more den usual la.coz i read dat book d.so whenever he said sumthin,got la recall abit here and there.den he talked about faith.faith is sumthing da we believe in coz we don’t know.but, all these while, my idea of havin g faith in God is quite wrong la.Uncle said dat, we have faith in God if only there’s a promise.means, we sorta sense dat there’s better stuff waiting fer us and we must trust in God. So whenever i said i had faith in God fer ma examination, scheduled assignments,a huge project.dats is just mere finger-crossed matter? Make sense la.i don’t feel anything when i said i had faith.but i donno whats da deal i made wit God.so basically, its luck. Donno how to explain, but it made sense. So, all these while i don’t quite have the right meaning of having faith in God other den knowing He promised me a place to stay in heaven?

did i get da right message? Hmmm...

a birthday partae

so todae[yesterday] was sin yee's burfday.*search fer photo*

yup..that's her alright.

i know this photo will come in handy one day.muahaha.taken last year if i'm not mistaken.i have poor memory.wanna be featured in ma blog..invite me to ur party..muahaha

to be honest, i'm not supposed to blog now.i actually tot of deleting this blog.but there's sum photos dat i uploaded and i doesn't have a copy of them.and too much work has been put into this blog.so..it will stay.supposed to do ma tutorials dat's already tertunda tunda.it's kinda sick when wad we plan always failed to turn out da way we want them to be. i always plan wad time to wad time i'm supposed to do ma homework..but i find it hard to stay on track.i think because of ma lack of discipline..THINGS turn out super UGLY.supposed to be hating my life right now...but thanks to sinyee's party,i get to drift ma mind off those stupid idiotic dilemmas i'm facing.

the party was fun.altho i makan-ed maggie mee before i left fer sinyee's.abit kenyang.so went there to kepo nie.party started at 7pm.i left at 7.45pm lidat.not tryin to steal da limelight or whatever.i overslept after a half-satisfyin meal of maggie goreng.called up ju,manatau..she just wanted to leave her house.apala~..nasib i overslept oso.

reached about 8 pm.went in and wished her.i went there without a present.shrugs.to many things on mind.extremely screwed up this few days.terrible mood swings.weekends just sorta enlighten me a lil.livia welcomed me.dat kid..geesh...brain totally corrupted.well,she's da sort dat i can hang out wit.she's very lawak and she talk a lot.Due to her age, a 13 year old kid, she's "innocent".went in and go straight to where everybody is gathering-the piano.wasn't feelin too happy yet. And they sang the christmas carols coz hwei is there to play the piano.my throat got a lil itchy due to a whole pack of twisties da day before.so happened there's liang cha there.i'm so freakin happy.cold sumore.after dat we went out to da makan table.where ju/sharonne/livia and me got into the "family" topic.it's private and confidential.but nothing obscene.trust me..there's a 13 year old kid there..it's all about hot dogs, some fries, and some cake.

den we switched venue to continue our topic fer da day coz if we stay outside too long,not only our lungs will burst akibat laugh too much, our stomache will burst as well coz da food is easily reached,just an arm away.

lets eat and be merry!!!

cool term rite...then we took the chat inside where shereene and melissa joinned in.that's where we have to stop the family topic.then shaun came in the circle and den there's sharma.and somehow da whole thing turns into a joke talk.talk and laugh.and talk sumore.now ma spirit already super high.and i think i'm high on liang cha .i believed dat watever i consumed in a huge portion will make me high.don't care liang cha or just normal carbonated drinks.i don't need alcohol.

cake cuttin ceremony~!!! woots!!..all the best secret recipe cakes u can find.chocolate indulgence is heaven.yummy~!!...i want more i want more~!!...so,it's basically a few silces of secret recipe cakes made into a circle la. when we asked sinyee to give her speech,she started wit " i just wanna thank all of you dat come todae"... the crowds- "*applause*ok..lets eat"..haha..we asked her to giv a speech and forced her to stop after a line.dat's how things work around crazy people..

before the cake cutting ceremony,marcus wanted to tell a joke.u know..all the tell-a-joke-la thing dat we've been playing.so,tergendala during cut cake time.after makan,he told la.and that's how the whole thing starts.joke after joke..nonstop.party is fun wit people dat can tell jokes.too bad i'm not one of them.i'm more to a listener.shaun contributed the most with his forever "3 men" joke.means most of his joke have three men in it.in the end he told a one man joke and i forgotten how it went but the 3 men punya stick like glue.

joke tellers:
shaun-uncountable
marcus-around 5?
mark-2 jokes
livia-1
shereene-1

too lazy to type the jokes out now.but they were good.hand banging jokes.it still depends how a person tells it la.i personally can't tell joke.me sucked at it. altho is joke after joke, there's some gap between when the jokers were tryin to get some funny jokes to tell.that's when da whole room go silence.as ma previuos post said.silence is weird.totally weird.it's like "kakakakakaka !!!!!!..." then total silence. very disturbing.but i can see some really tryin to gather some jokes.good effort.haha

earlier todae, justin,jack and kiwen came "visiting". they were lookin fer location to shoot their mumos short clip. it was raining so heavily.so wet.but they managed to find a bamboo shoot spot.i have no idea what they wanna do there. just wait and see la.

i want a new camera la.i want new locations to snap pics.how nice if i can..wait..if i'm willing to go everywhere to get good shots.well,i most probably will if i got a cool camera.dots~

if u see me smiling these few days.they are fake smiles.if i joked,it's a forced joke.
but todae was fun.laughing is feels great.it's like screaming but its the happy way.

this post ended at 1.24 am. blogging takes up extremely alot of time.especially when da grammers sucked.have to sorta check and stuff.blah~

fri-i-day

somehow ma internet seemed to be doin fine only during da night.not particularly nite..but after midnite.it sucked...whole day can't download stuff.

I was out da whole day wit ju and hema.saw HAPPY FEET.IT RAWKS...super d duper a**kicking animated movie by warner bros..there's 2 things i don't really like about this movie.da animation wasn't my type,da penguin i think wasn't cute enough(except fer da baby penguins and mumble happy feet) or friendly enough.and there's no peak to the show.don't have da kind of kick dat most movies have. BUT it's joke can make ur stomache burst.seriuosly...and it's music and songs and OST...SUPERB.it's so musical.it's a blast~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hmmph..i like it but kinda think it wasn't great..hmmph....neways, i was laughin and laughin.ju and me banged each other's head while laughing.crap man..dats da first time i ketawa till so bad.GO WATCH....TODAE...AND TOMORROW...this cartoon gave me a good laugh after 'over the hedge' and 'open season'. but i think those who are looking fer storyline quality..and u know...deep meaningfull punya..won't really like it la.but..da music rawks..PENGUINS CAN SING...ish *shake head*...next up is a cow animated cartoon....oh yea..da person actually looked sooo real in da cartoon..we were like..."wow...so real....wooooo..." manatau...really real humans.dey colaborated real humans and animated penguins in HAPPY FEET.nowonder da penguin had to look as real as possible.

i'm tryin to download da movie.but torrentspy doesn't seemed to offer the torrent.yea..it's dat good and i'm not content watching only once.i wanna watch it again..and again to remember wad da character said word b word.

oh yea..i'm getting a puppy tomorrow..so freakin excited..muahaha...don't know whether ma doggie and bergaul wit da new puppy or not.kinda worried tho.this means i got 3 dogs~~~it's colour is dark brown.fergot to ask da breed.will try to search online tho..

tried on a new black and grey striped shirt from SEED...fulamak..mahal la...can buy ma analog text book d. rm59. freak..so expensive...but i really liked it tho.i think i'll try to find a cheaper replica of it la.didn't get to buy, at least i took a snap shot of it. analog or shirt...analog or shirt..ok..if i can get a copy of text book from senior,i will consider this shirt.the new mall...it's soo...expensive..everything there is expensive...wonder quicksilver and rox can survive there..haha

tired.so much to do.so lil time to make it happen.bad time managment.

random scribbles: 7

omygosh..i so wanna puke.i wanna puke at everything i see,everything i smell.feel so nauseated.

so sueh man todae..i was supposed to lepak at lib around 12+.back from having lunch in McD.spent extra time staring at the walls over a regular fries and drinks.didn't finish either of them.i actually gave a shot studyin in McD.nah..just posing wit ma tutorials.den got distracted by the McDfm.shiet....now da notes smell of McD.no..u can't smell double cheese burger or fries.it's all of them combine together.IT STINKS. now the thaught of McD made me feel like puking . gorss..yuck..ewww...tak boleh tahan..

*notes currently being aired ...spread out on ma bed with fan blowing at them*-have to get rid of the smell.all fast food restaurant got this weird stench.not only fast food la...every makan place.unbearable smell.wargh.!!!!!

so,i reached mmu around 12.30.left jusco earlier coz wanna go admission counter to ask about may intake.manatau..those freaks work darn slow..i just wanna ask a freakin question.they asked me to wait outside.suak..i walked away..malas to wait.tutorial haven't start yet.anyways..go back to 'i'm supposed to lepak in lib around 12 + '...manatau..i left ma wallet in da car..and it's parked in EP.damn!..can't enter lib.tanks to dat..i have to find place to sit..some place cold.den i walked and turn to da left..*PIAK* wad da~!!...water? air cond water? no...there shudn't be any aircond installed there...looked again...WARGH~!! FWEAK!!! BIRD SHIIIIITTT....tak boleh tak boleh...nearest toilet...FET buIlding...run upstairs...tried to cover up ma pants a lil.ran up to first floor.wet some tissue." stupid bird shit on me.no other place to shit ar * wipe wipe* curse which ever bird dat did this ..* pull tissue*...sueh betul man todae...apa? mau kena loteri ker...* wash hands,bend down and wipe again*..damnit that bird..freak...why la todae.adoi~!!!...*lift head up...BANG*..i see stars....stupid liquid soap case....*ouch* ...." people walked in.i think she was shocked dat i was talkin to maself..she asked if i'm okay.i said " bird shitted on me" ...okok...u take ur time..[it's a one person toilet-who would build a one person toilet?] den here comes the Mr.Bean's act.same case of wet pants.but it's in different area.mine is on the knee..his is on the delicate place.ehem~ i had to like jongkok in order fer ma knee to be high enough to get da hot air. after a few minutes...it's spotless.it didn't show any sign of bird shit anymore.but ma leg was lenguh.

go class...super nauseated d..can puke anytime.strings of bird's poo is flashing in ma mind.ok..go in fer tutorial class and get over wit it.fine...then i was lookin tru da window in one of da FBL buildings.when i looked out...i see a pigeon..i banged da window wit ma hands.whoa..so resentful.hmmph..same thing all pigeons will do if they stopped on window pane..they leave apart of them...THEIR SHIT.can't take it anymore..shit is everywhere...maybe i should use poo...shit doesn't sound too good..but wad da heck..used it so many times in this post. then a tutor came in.passed a message.he said tutorial will start at 2pm...due to some inconveniences.don't let me see u sneakin in PS to eat lunch man. den i came to know that the next room is having ECP lec.dropped by la..since i missed todae's lecture.hehe..sat in fer one hour..den blah.

saw da old gangs..haha..missed them...talked fer abit...and da lecture started.after that i went fer tutorial at 2 lo.fuh~ 1/2 hour nie done d..i waited so long..being shitted on..and all these fer 1/2 hour...perfect la...

i wanna watch the prestige and happy feet..hopefully can settle both of them this friday..muahahaha

and what's wit singers/song producers coming out wit cartoon colaborated songs.but they sounded really good. there's london bridge/wind it up got another one seriuosly nice..but don't know wad it called...have to search fer it.

oh yea..btw..check out bianca ryan.she's a12 year old kid dat can sing like kelly clarkson.she won the "america got talent" competition and she won.i saw her quite sometime ago..in youtube..den when i watched 'cd usa' she made her apearence..altho as stiff as a 12 year old kid would be..but her voice..quite canggih la...