farewells, hate it

“next year” finally arrives.i kept mentioning dat ju’s leaving fer school next year, and it’s happening.well i think i took it better this time coz i’m prepared fer it. Unlike those other times where she desperately lookin fer school and i have no idea when she’s leaving. Once it was like a sudden notice dat she is leavin in a week.i was totally pissed off. It didn’t happen anyway. KL is a tough one. Malaccans like me or if u want to count urslef in, wouldn’t like da there. Chenli didn’t like it. It’s too much fer me, personally. God provided a place fer her.i think she have to count on Him to guide her through if she wants to pull this off well.

I had an sms conversation wit her. I don’t dare to call.afraid dat i sob too loud.can’t go her house, konon study fer exam. But, da truth is i’m afraid dat i would shed tears.sungguh memalukan.crying would cause ma nose to stuck.den i would suffer.still in da middle of recovering.argh..all kinds of excuses. I gave her *hugs* tho...sms style...

Anyway,this is just a short notice to those who visit ma blog la. She will be leaving tomorrow.don't wanna sound gay or anything but i'm gonna miss a lot. Sigh.~

i’m still workin on ma studies.hope to do better this time. But i’m freakin sick.not da sick sick.da real sick.