life & death...

listening to:kutles (great band)
feeling: kenyang..after breakie

yesterday,one of ma grandaunt fell down while she was cooking.i heard it quite bad as her she fell to da ground at an angle of 90 degree...so basically it like da sitting down action but stomp lil harder on da but n there's no chair there.ma mum say she kept saying dat she wanted to die n stuff.where's her grandchilds n all.i guess wad is running tru her mind is dat she won't be able to see any of em if anythin unexpectedly happens to her.thank God dat she's all better and checked out of hospital yesterday nite.

been wanting to post something on life and death for quite some time.many things happened since last sem's midterms n stretch all da way to finals.i didn't want to post bout this ealier coz i don't want it to be just a mere post but something i actually wanted share.hopefully this time this post will stay and not be deleted after a few days la.

recalling....

its so coincidence how death n life actually complemented each other.sometimes death for somebody means a new life for another. it actually make sense.for instance,ma dad's close fren's dad (yea..complicated..just remember is an ol uncle)passed away on good friday.so weird rite.easter day/good friday/easter sunday its all about Christ being ressurected.Jesus came alive,but there's somebody goin bec to sleep(die).not dat i am comparing dat uncle to Christ.NEVER.easter day/good friday/easter sunday supposed to be a merry/joyful/thankful day..and a celebrated one..shrugs..its just opposite for this family i guessed.but i kinda knew it will be alright pretty soon la..coz his daughters and sons were just happy dat he accepted Christ before his death..another thing is despite of having a funeral in malaysia,my lil neice was born over the other side of the world in canada.life and death?wad?..is this supposed to be about da number of people on earth?tryin to make it level all da time? it's just farny how all this little tiny occurance can just lead me to think of life and death.

ever tought about wad it actually feels like to be on da dying bed? sometimes death comes unexpectedly.too soon,some might say.i still remember before ma engine maths paper,news bout 2 ex-form-sixers was killed in an accident.both were malaccans and had big brains for their bright future.sadly,its fated dat dey din haf da chance to soar.this incident actually brought me back to ma alpha year,during ma human developement class.da lecturer asked us imagine dat we're going to die in 3-4 months time.i really did wad she told us to,and i was sitting in fosee lobby thinkin bout wad i wanted rush tru da 3 to 4 months.me heart felt so solemn.come on..i'm just 17 goin to 18 at dat time.too young to die~!!.hmmph....ever tucked in your bed and be satisfied with wad u did todae and dat you have made good use of da hours dat you're awake?

wad about "live life to da fullest" ? people said dat you don't know wad u missed till da day u are old,and you don't know wad you got till its gone.maybe we should pause somtimes and haf appreciation to wad ever happens around us.there's another incident dat happened to one of ma relatives.she's been workin n workin..saving up ever single penny she earn and even haf maggie mee for mealS to make sure dat she haf enuf money to support her family.she worked day and nite,taking all da overtimes and cover ups(she's a nurse in singapore).den one day she's diagnosed wit cancer,and nothing can save her.she passed away w/o knowing da taste of real life. for her to regret is way to late.

ever thought dat wad u did is enough and u will haf no regrets about it? for me,it's hard to admit there's no regrets in live.okok..there's da "wad da..."/"crap"/"geeesh"/*heart burning*...but i try ma best take all mistakes dat i made and turn into lessons learnt.

sometimes people don't see wad's da point of workin ur humps off knowing dat there's one day when u'll die,leavin earth and not able to bring wadsoever you earned.but sometimes you can see death as an end to your life dat u will try everyting it takes to make your it a lil more meaningfull and dat u can lay on your diying bed,looking back and be satisfied with every chapter of your life.by then you will know dat you done enough.